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my name is amber
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I have a ton of body image issues. I used to be a size US 10, active, and a healthy eater. I used to take care of myself. The past 2 years have been very stressful and I’ve dealt with a lot of depression resulting in a 45lb weight gain. That’s a lot of weight for my 5’ 3” frame. I can feel it when I walk up the stairs in my apartment or when I try to run with my dog.
It’s hard for me to accept the fact that I’m bigger now. I keep trying to shove myself into clothes I used to be able to wear. This just makes me more depressed and then I eat more. Vicious cycle. 
Yesterday I went real shopping for the first time since my weight gain and I bought clothes that fit properly. It’s amazing how nicely fitting clothes can instantly slim you down and make you feel so confident! By the end of the work week, I was going into work wearing yoga pants. I just hated how I looked and felt in my old clothes. Blargh.
Anyway, I feel like if I start posting pictures of my outfits it will help me build up my confidence.
I am going to Florida in about 2 weeks and I was feeling so schlumpy but I am really happy with the clothes I purchased. Especially these shorts!
Outfit breakdown:
Necklace: Black peals. X-mas present from Dylan.
Shirt: The Gap XL
Shorts: The Gap (US 16)
Sandals: Target (US 8.5)

I have a ton of body image issues. I used to be a size US 10, active, and a healthy eater. I used to take care of myself. The past 2 years have been very stressful and I’ve dealt with a lot of depression resulting in a 45lb weight gain. That’s a lot of weight for my 5’ 3” frame. I can feel it when I walk up the stairs in my apartment or when I try to run with my dog.

It’s hard for me to accept the fact that I’m bigger now. I keep trying to shove myself into clothes I used to be able to wear. This just makes me more depressed and then I eat more. Vicious cycle. 

Yesterday I went real shopping for the first time since my weight gain and I bought clothes that fit properly. It’s amazing how nicely fitting clothes can instantly slim you down and make you feel so confident! By the end of the work week, I was going into work wearing yoga pants. I just hated how I looked and felt in my old clothes. Blargh.

Anyway, I feel like if I start posting pictures of my outfits it will help me build up my confidence.

I am going to Florida in about 2 weeks and I was feeling so schlumpy but I am really happy with the clothes I purchased. Especially these shorts!

Outfit breakdown:

Necklace: Black peals. X-mas present from Dylan.

Shirt: The Gap XL

Shorts: The Gap (US 16)

Sandals: Target (US 8.5)


  1. inirac said: I’ve been feeling schlumpy toooo. Wtf brain, w.t.f.
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